So this is me. Happy
peaceful
on a trip
I miss it. That smile.
It's something that doesn't come around
as often as I need it to
I miss Trent.
He seems to be all I can think about lately.
I think of all the good memories, then I remember the not so great one too
How do I wake up from this nightmare?
migraines are controling my life right now
Remember this?

You didn't know how to use the can opener on your leatherman. I caught you in the act. That was before we got a can opener.
I miss you a lot. I dream about you all the time, but it doesn't matter. You won't come to me. I won't see you. How do I make you listen? We were perfect for each other. I wanted to spend so much time with you, but it was hard. You have work and school. Then you wanted to relax and play video games. It was always you. I just don't see how it was my time when I did see you. All I wanted was to cuddle with you. to love you and you love me. What happened? Gosh I sound so love sick. I am.

I can't breathe. I can't eat. I eat anyways only because I know I should. I can't taste anything. I want to puke all the time but I can't. I feel like I am buzzed all the time. I don't know how I get from place to place. Everything is so fuzzy. I wish you would read this, then you would know.